Quarters

I feel an imperative, an urgency, for a reckoning.

I have 6 months until I turn 50.  My parents just turned 75.  My grandmothers are almost 100.

I feel constrained by a sense of dishevelment in my first half century.  If I have another quarter century to live, and perhaps another quarter after that, I want it to be less past-bound and more moment-present.

To quote Snuffy Smith, "Time's awastin'."